Contemplations

December 8, 2011 — – Miss Girl, my spoiled rotten basset hound,  got me up at 1:30 to go to the bathroom. Yes, I know her name is weird. It’s kind of a nick-name.  I always add “Miss” or “Mister” before a dog’s name when I’m talking to them and “girl” just followed behind so fluently that it stuck.  She answers to it.  She acts like the diva/drama queen name it is so we left it.  But as for getting up at 1:30am,  I am ready for a full night’s sleep. My brain doesn’t function properly without lots of sleep.

I have gone a 2^nd night without pain spasms and a 2^nd day without spasms at my desk. It’s been great.  I hope it stays that way!

December 9, 2011 – - I went to WalMart after work and walked around and didn’t have any pain so I stuck around and just enjoyed walking and browsing!  It was awesome!I’ve finally gotten back into some of my size 18-20 size shirts. I’ll be glad when my butt follows suit and my HUGE arms. 

December 10, 2011 – -  Another gray and gloomy weather weekend. Oh well. I’m going to color my hair today and bathe the dog (she stinks!) So after I bathed the dog, I went outside and spoke to the little miniature dachshund that lives behind us. She is so adorable.  Poor thing, she was shaking so badly. It was cold outside and she was cold.  I put some birdseed on the ground (for the deer and the mourning doves).  I saw fresh deer skat so I know they came to visit last night or early this morning, looking for food.

I trimmed the dog’s toenails and gave her some cheese and then took some pieces to the little dog behind us.  She likes cheese, too.  It breaks my heart to see her cold and crying. I wish I could warm her up. Her little toenails are so long they are curving. I think since they had a baby, the dog got tossed outside.  It is just so sad.  I prayed for her before I did my Bible study today.

It is so funny that Beth Moore spoke on yielding to others, being merciful, etc. because that was what I had talked to the Lord about earlier this week when Boss mentioned the business growing and hiring someone else to sit at the front desk and answer phones and do purchasing.  I really like being in an office full of men.  There’s no pretense, competition or jealousy going on like it typically does with women.  I can be myself and not think about it.  But He answered me with this study today.  I do need Him to heal my insecurity and my mind. I thought back just a few years ago at how immature my thought process was and each year, He’s healing it little by little.  The Lord can do amazing things if we just let Him.

December 12, 2011 – Yesterday was rough. Had a migraine that just about made me sick before I finally went to bed to get some relief.

Migraine is gone but I am still fighting the Christmas issue with food.  Boss brought in some dark chocolate peppermint bark that looked amazing. I want some Christmas cookies but I know me.  If I start eating one, I don’t think I’ll be able to stop. I am like an alcoholic but with sweets.  No can do. Not even a little bit.

I’ll be glad when Christmas is over.  The “in your face” sweets will be gone.

December 18, 2011 — A co-worker’s wife introduced me to “The Pioneer Woman” via Facebook and I didn’t quite get it. This week, she sent a book to work with him for me to read.  I started reading her (the Pioneer Woman—a.k.a. Ree Drummond) story Saturday afternoon and finished it Sunday afternoon.  Best love story I ever read.  It was real. It didn’t have a ton of sex in it.  It reminded me of why I fell in love with my husband all those years ago and I still love him.  She has a show on Food Network and Hallmark Man and I watched her Christmas special this morning.  I just don’t think I could ever love cooking that much.  The prime rib looked good, though. 

I noticed today that my size 22 jeans are loose.  Yippeeeeee!

Yesterday, I added a couple of things to my stretching routine—stomach crunches and floor push-ups.  My triceps were burning!  Still having issues with the sciatic nerve but not as bad.  I just really wish that I could get out of emptying the packages/pallets when they come in.  That does not help at all.  Bending, bending, climbing, stooping, climbing and more bending.  It aggravates my thigh and sciatic nerve for days.

It’s a cold, quiet Sunday evening.  I’m loving being at home with Hallmark Man and my dog.  All of us nestled up in comfy clothes with the lit Christmas tree glowing softly nearby.  We took our coffee table to Son’s house earlier. He needed something to put his TV on in his “game room” and I needed to get that out of the living room.  It was just crowding things. Now the room is much more “spacious” looking.  The furniture isn’t all crammed together.

I want to get them some things to help decorate their house.  Their living room is so sparse and naked.  I thought about a plant but between Chewy and Griz (their new golden retriever puppy), the plant wouldn’t stand a chance. Rubbermaid containers?  Crock pot?  Mirror for the wall?  I’ll have to think on that. 

The Next Phase

Yesterday while I was half asleep, cooking my eggs for breakfast, I felt the prompting of the Holy Spirit to text my best friend to see if she wanted to go to lunch.

I thought it was because we hadn’t been to lunch in about 6 months and she needed someone to talk to.  Of course, I always enjoy talking with her.  But we had an interesting conversation that left me re-thinking my health strategies.

She had texted me that she went veggie and would explain at lunch.

So the first thing I asked was, “So, tell me about the veggie thing.”

She had been in a lot of pain in her lower back to the point where she was not sleeping at night. She had even asked me at one point who I went to for chiropractic visits. I had assumed she went there.  Wrong.  She had been reading about the problems with eating meat with hormones in it and the effects they were having on us as humans. So, she decided to try it for 7 days.  She was eating whole grains, veggies and fruit. Fourteen days later, she was a new woman.  No pain. She was even having extensive female issues and almost had surgery. That disappeared as well.  All because of hormonally injected meat.

While we were at the restaurant, I ate their steak fajita meat (which, was not organic, I’m sure).  I researched raw foods, hormone issues with meat and veggie diets all afternoon and into the evening. I told my husband about it.

I decided then and there that if the meat was not organic, I would not eat it.  No more bacon or sausage or roast for me.  I can’t find that organic here where I live anyway.  I’m going to try it for 7 days to see if my hip/sciatic inflammation goes away.  Chiropractic visits are not making a difference.

I even stopped by the grocery store last night and got more cans or organic beans (kidney, black, pinto) and some non-genetically manufactured whole brown rice.  I’m going to interchange that in with where my regular meat used to be.

I woke up this morning, limping almost.  My hips were acutely inflamed again.  It had to be the meat. I ate eggs this morning, no bacon…no sausage.  I brought organic hamburger patty and organic raw broccoli for lunch.

I called my BFF to tell her what was going on. She is excited about our new phase.  Once my inflammation goes away, I can walk again. Right now, I can walk to the end of the driveway and back and that’s about it.  I am ready to step it up. I prayed about it all morning.  I asked for wisdom and help with this next phase.  Being born and raised in the South in the fast-food, fried generation, this will be a challenge to figure out how to prepare meals without cooking (except beans and rice and organic meat).  I want to try to eat as much raw as I can. I keep almonds at my desk and at home in case I get hungry. On to the next phase we go!

And, “I can do ALL things through Christ Who gives me strength.” Phil 4:13

Do I Have To?

December 4, 2011 — Didn’t sleep in quite as long today. Got up at 9:30 and went outside and trimmed up the bushes. They are dying from some sort of fungus or disease so they look like crap right now. I couldn’t trim them in the summer because of the wasps and my hip.  It only took me a couple of hours but still my body is screaming.  I had to keep stopping and stretching my muscles.

I got in, ate some almonds, broccoli and peanut butter and watched another segment of beliefchangers.  Tried to take a nap but could not get warm. So I got up and got a hot shower and then took a ½ a hydrocodone and tried to take a nap. I slept for about 45 minutes before I got woke up to pee. I couldn’t get comfortable after laying back down but did manage to doze off for a bit.

Talked to Mom a little on the phone. She sounds better.

December 5, 2011 – Ugh. Monday. Or should I say “Moanday.”  Not thrilled about going to work today.  I know I’m not going to be busy because Boss won’t be there.  Boring. Makes for a long day.

I went to Kroger at lunch. I was dreading it. I knew it would be pricey and I didn’t even buy a lot.  Makes me sick.  When I am in this frame of mind, I know I shouldn’t evaluate my diet at this point.  I spent $306 and $110 of it was gift cards.

I got one of those for Daughter for Christmas and the other I used to get some fried shrimp for dinner.  After I got the shrimp, I realized that I possibly shouldn’t be eating them.  Fried in what kind of oil?  I’m sure it wasn’t olive oil. Batter can’t be spelt wheat. Soooo…no more of those. I should have gotten the ribs.

My nails need redoing and I am fighting myself about it. I really enjoy them. They are pretty, classy and about the only thing I like on me.  So I am not doing anything at this point. I am tempted to cut them off just to save $30 and time.

Hallmark Man had the news on and I am so glad he changed it.  Depressing.  I can’t focus on that stuff right now.

December 6, 2011 – - Went to chiropractor today. Told him about my muscle spasms and he said to pull up my leg half-cross legged to stretch that area several times a day.  It worked.

I was busy because Boss was back and I enjoyed it being busy.

Had to run back to Kroger. Seems I always forget things.  I am trying to type this while watching TV. The York Peppermint Patty commercial is enticing. I am missing eating tons and tons and tons of chocolate Christmas bells. I know they aren’t good for me.  I wish I could eat anything I wanted and not be affected by it.  I do love to eat.  I just have to remember as long as I am on this earth, I’ll be restricted on my diet if I want to have any quality of life.  ~sigh~

I’m sure any food we eat in heaven will be amazing and won’t be detrimental to my health. lol

Talked to my BFF Lori today. She is going through a rough time as well.  I miss her. We need to get together for lunch.

Almost time for bed.

December 7, 2011 – - I didn’t want to get up when my alarm went off.  I was in a deep sleep. More like a coma…

Boss has decided he wants to give gifts to our customers like Byrd Cookies or Two Smart Cookies and I started missing the sweets of Christmas again.

Basically, after weighing myself yesterday at Doc’s office, I’ve gone from 285 to 230 since December of last year.  I still have 100 lbs to lose.  Hallmark Man says there’s no hurry but dang, it’s gonna be a long year.

The Fog

I like foggy days. Not mental fog.  The real thing.  Thick mist floating through the air so dense you can barely see 20 yards ahead of you when you’re driving. 

As I was driving through the fog this morning, something caught my eye on the side of the road. At first, it appeared like wispy puffs of cotton…or was it trash?  The closer I got, I realized it was hundreds of spider webs.  All of them made visible by the thick misty fog.  It was so cool! I spent the whole drive in to work enjoying literally thousands of webs.  They were in the grass, on fences and on bushes. Each one designed their own little snare for their next meal.  Woven so intricately, it can only be by Divine Design. As daylight comes, the spiders will tear down their web and rebuild it again the next evening. All in a days work for them but an awe-inspiring creation for me to enjoy.

I wish I had a camera that would pick up what the human eye can.  God makes the coolest things to enjoy!

My Song is Back!

November 28, 2011 – - Finally! Back at work!  I enjoy my job but I really overdid it today. Went to Kroger before work, the bank, WalMart, Tractor Supply and the post office during lunch. 15 Boxes came in so I went in the back and unloaded them.  My sciatic nerve and muscles in that area are screaming.

I got home and Hallmark Man jumped right in with me, cut up onions for the meatloaf and cleaned up the kitchen, did laundry and I thanked him for his help and he looked at me funny and said, “It’s my job.”  The Lord answers prayer!

Later,  I took ½ a muscle relaxer and ½ a pain pill.  Getting ready to go to bed.

November 29, 2011 – - – So today was really slow at work. I went to the chiropractor and got some hip strengthening exercises.  I am looking forward to getting my muscles strong again.  I got my song back! I was singing with my iPod this morning and in the shower. I love it when the Lord gives me my song back!

Daughter came over tonight and got some Christmas decorations and brought my granddog. Hallmark Man cooked chili and since it is in the 30’s tonight, it perfect for the weather.

Time flies when we get home from work. I feel like I don’t have time to do much. I guess because the TV hogs all the time. Gotta get up early tomorrow to make up for leaving early today.

November 30, 2011 – - Got up at 5:30. Did my usual but added more stretching exercises in and I still didn’t make it to work by 8.  I tried but ended up there by 8:20.  I had to stop and put mail in the box and go back to the house to get my cell phone.  So, I figured if I get up at 5:15, that’ll give me plenty of time to do what I need and get there at 8am.

Nothing unusual happened today.   I did sing a little more this morning.  Not as much as yesterday but still singing.

December 1, 2011 – - Wow…I can’t believe it is December already!  My sciatic nerve is giving me a fit.  It woke me up at one point with my thigh throbbing.  I didn’t do my stretching exercises but a few times at work I did have to stretch because my sciatic nerve was aggravating me.

So once I got home I took ½ muscle relaxer & ½ hydrocodone. Hallmark Man cooked sausage and lima beans.  He also helped me clean the inside of my windshield.

I watched Life Today’s Beth Moore segment on “Shipwrecked but not ruined.”  It is really helping me to stay focused.

I need to start doing this journal in the mornings. I can’t really focus on what I really want to put down because of TV. I have a fresher brain in the morning anyway.

December 3, 2011 — – This morning I slept in until Hallmark Man woke me up around 11am. I didn’t realize it was so late. I did my stretches and my Bible study.  Somewhere before that, I decided to do another fast.  Now that I know that I can do it, I wanted to do it.  I want to spend the day with the Lord.  Just about the time I finished my study, Hallmark Man went off to take a nap.  So, I decided to start cleaning and patching up walls and doing some touch-up paint.  I talked with the Lord while I worked and sang.  I really do enjoy this.

Hallmark Man got up and helped with vacuuming and he took the wall molly out of the wall where the a/c thermostat was and patched it up. I finished cleaning the baseboards while the oven did its own self-cleaning.  It is definitely keeping it warm in here.  I washed blankets, too.

I went outside to take out the trash and the neighbors were out there raking and burning leaves.  So, I walked over to talk a bit with them and came inside.  My sciatic nerve was screaming.  Time to take a break.

I need to still flush my body out so I am going to continue drinking my lemon water and I will eat tomorrow.  I am hungry but it was because I hadn’t drank anything in a while.  Gotta start gulping water again.  Yay.

God Answers Prayer

November 26, 2011 — Slept in this morning.  Got up, gave the dog a bath, got a shower and did some laundry, and did my Bible study.  Took a nap, talked to Mom a while. She’s sick.  My sister called. She is going nuts with the kids.

I am just feeling like one big void.  No emotions whatsoever.  I can’t figure out what is causing it.  No joy, no anger, no passion, nothing.  No emotions.  I hate it.  I am really wondering if I can come off Cymbalta.  I know I’ve tried before to get rid of anti-depressants and then realized I needed to be on them.  But my diet has changed and I am trying to be healthy, removing toxins from my diet and I am just can’t seem to be excited about Christmas.  We’ve got medical and bills, bills, bills.  We need groceries but are broke.  I worked my tail off this past week to make sure we had enough money but still fall short.    It’s like this every stinking year.  We are fine all through the year and BOOM! September hits and our health falls apart and we end up with uncontrollable medical bills. I wish I had help with this but Hallmark Man just exists here. He does not pay attention to the bills.

November 27, 2011 – - Didn’t sleep real good last night. I went to bed with Hallmark Man to cuddle some and laying on my left side, balancing to rub his back aggravated my leg. I ended up getting up and going to the twin bed and taking a half of a hydrocodone to ease the pain so I could sleep.

This morning, I am still in a funk. Feel like I’ve got a cloud over my head.  I did actually have a few tears so I do have a heart in there somewhere!!  I had posted last night on Facebook about my journey to health and I have a dear Christian sister in Texas that I’ve never physically met that posted under mine to remind me that my body is the temple of the Holy Spirit and why I started this journey to begin with.  I love that dear sister in Christ!  We met on MySpace and moved to Facebook.  I can’t wait to meet her in heaven.  She is so dear to me!

You know something that God made me realize the other night while I was laying in bed pondering?  Food was an idol to me.  I woke up thinking about it, obsessing about it and it is all I focused on.  It was what I lived for.  WRONG!  God alone should be Who I live for…not the food He provides.  He even fussed at the children ofIsraelto not worship His creation. Duh….sometimes I am so slow!

I just spend the last few minutes reading back through this journal.  It seems like forever and a day on a diet and nothing is happening fast enough until I look at the timeline. I actually started The Metabolic Typing Diet in early October.  It really hasn’t been that long. I can see the changes by looking back at what was happening.  Praise God for answered prayer!!  He hears me when I call.  He answers me.  He loves me.  How awesome is that!!!!

I started a new online course that I found via a friend on Facebook called Belief Changers. The actual course is The Abiding Life.  It’s learning to live by abiding in Christ’s love.  I was raised in a Christian home but in school and church, we were drilled legalism. I am trying to erase that but learning to abide in Christ and not go by “works” is hard. I still beat myself up when I miss church or don’t pray enough.  I am hoping this will get me through those thoughts.

Spaz Mode

November 19 2011 – - I got woke up this morning by Hallmark Man telling me that Chewy had a seizure and my son had to take him to the vet and that they were coming over later.  WooHoo!  Got me motivated!  I got up showered, ate breakfast (leftover bar-b-que meat) and cleaned house, cut the grass, did laundry and more.  Took a nap and found out that Wayne called and said they weren’t coming.  Well, Poo!  At least the house got clean and the lawn got done.  Thank you, Lord, for your help!  Edged the driveway and around the house and then did my video Bible study with Beth Moore.  It seems that this study on James is going to be DEEP.  Love it!

Sat down to eat roast that I had cooked and it was tough.  So disappointing!  Oh well.

I did more laundry, washed  my sheets and have been sitting on the sofa playing computer games. My sciatic nerve is now starting to give me a fit. Need go to do my stretching exercises and go to bed.

I’m so thrilled my house & lawn are clean!!

November 20, 2011 – - Got up and went toHarvey’s to get a ham and a turkey. Decided to cook this Thanksgiving.  I am tired of having the bah-humbug spirit and decided to enjoy the holiday season.  When we got home, we got the Christmas decorations down and I decorated the tree, put up the Nativity and placed the snowmen.  I can’t find my Christmas village.  I guess I’ll have to get up in the attic again and go through the stuff.  It’s gotta be here somewhere.  I put it up last year, I think. Maybe not because Chewy would have eaten it.   Don’t have to worry about him this year. Can you tell my brain is pinging?

I took a nap after lunch and then went through all of the clothes in the closet & drawers. Put all of my fat clothes in a big bag.  I threw away the shirts with holes in them.  I’ll take the good clothes to the Manna house tomorrow.

Got a migraine but no medicine to get rid of it.  I haven’t had one of those in a long time.

I am so thrilled to be able to do normal stuff without pain!  Of course, I am sore afterward but I was that way before the sciatic nerve problem kicked in.  I always tend to “over do” on the weekends. Gotta go back to work to get some rest. 

November 22, 2011 – - Let’s just say that Monday was so busy and fast that I didn’t have time to even think about writing in here.  I got to work at 7am and hit the floor running. I was busy!   Dr. Hamby was shocked that I had done so much over the weekend.

Today was basically the same, got to work and really hit the floor running.  I wore shoes with a slight heel because the shoes I wore yesterday were too big.  I ended up moving files, getting ready for 2012.  Then we got in a big shipment so I spent hours unpacking boxes from a pallet.  I fought with a vendor over invoices most of the day as well.  Again, time flew by.  Loved it!

I have been taking Nature Made vitamins for a while but I switched to the non-gel kind and I have so much more energy.  It doesn’t look like I pee them out all day long.

November 23, 2011 – - – My sciatic nerve throbbed a bit last night and woke me up.  When I went to see the chiropractor, the physical therapist doing my ultrasound could feel the knot in the butt area where I spent bending over and over and over again yesterday.  I got some new stretching exercise while I was there as well.

After I left the Doc’s office, I ran into Wal-Mart and picked up a few more items for Thanksgiving.

Again hit the floor running at work.  Got quite a bit done today, breaking down boxes and getting files ready for 2012.  I know…early.  But I’d rather have them done when I’m not slammed doing other stuff.

We went to El Real to eat with my son and daughter-in-law tonight. Very good food.  I didn’t eat much before I got full.  Have a nice “to-go” box for lunch Friday!

November 24, 2011 – Thanksgiving!  Slept until 8:30.  Ended up having to run to the grocery store…forgot to get Vanilla extract, cranberry sauce and onions. My son and daughter-in-law wanted to do laundry so I needed more Tide.  Hallmark Man had to go to the bathroom (he has colitis and when it flares up, he’s miserable) so he told me he was gonna sit in the truck.  So I got through and checked out and walked out and looked and looked and the truck was gone. I couldn’t believe it.  He left me!  I know he had a problem using public bathrooms but geez.  So I started walking toward the end of the parking lot and some old creepy guy drove by and asked me if I was OK.  Yeah. I’m fine. I stopped and called my daughter-in-law  to see if they happened to be nearby but of course they weren’t.  I figured I was gonna have to walk home so I stopped, grabbed a couple of Altoids and about that time, Hallmark Man pulled up.  He had driven to a gas station to use the bathroom and came back. I told him they had one in the grocery store but he said he didn’t know.

Cooked for hours and I actually made my mother-in-law’s dressing.  Hallmark Man said it tasted like his Mom’s.  My legs hurt by the time I was done so I took a nap.  Finished up about the time my son, daughter-in-law and Chewy came in.  Took 15 minutes to scarf it down.  Now I remember why I don’t like to cook.   Cook for hours, scarf it in minutes.

My daughter came by to eat a bite and visit and she brought her dog, too.  More doggies! :-)

November 25, 2011 —- Didn’t sleep well last night. I kept waking up thinking I had heard the dog whining. Got up and went to work for about 4 hours today. Got payroll done.  Got home, ate my leftovers from El Real and took a 3 hour nap. Ate leftover turkey.  Addressed my Christmas cards.  Now watching a movie on Lifetime with Louis.

Anybody but me feel like they have to shift into high gear through the holidays?

Silence is Golden

This weekend, Hallmark Man and I got to spend some time with our grandchildren. My stepdaughter brought her two boys (ages 10 & 3) and my son’s baby girl (3 months) to spend the night. 

Usually, I am a nervous wreck when someone comes over. I scrutinize every nook and cranny of the house before they get there.  This visit was no exception.

By the time they arrived, I was pooped from cleaning like a mad woman.  The boys were shy at first but soon they came to life.  Bouncing in and out of the house, using both doors going from video game to snacks to drinks to ringing the doorbell over and over, they didn’t slow down-especially my 3 year old grandson who kept asking, “why?” about everything. 

Meanwhile, Hallmark Man and I shared taking care of our baby granddaughter. She is starting to coo and gurgle and smile and I spent a lot of my time just staring at her.  The wonder of God’s creation just blew me away.  All of the tiny details of a baby are so incredible.  How in the world anyone could hurt an innocent, previous child is beyond me.

I had purchased a Tens unit Friday and, boy, did I use it.  I wore it out this weekend.  I feel like I stood the entire time (I know I didn’t but it just felt that way). 

In the midst of all of the chaos, my daughter and her boyfriend came over and brought their dog.  We then headed over to my son’s house so my stepdaughter could see their new house,  My son has two dogs and they were babysitting a friend’s little girl.  So, it was just a little busy over there, to say the least…between 10 people and 3 dogs…yikes!

Sunday, I got up around 8:30 and the boys were already up and had eaten breakfast and were playing video games.  The baby woke up and the craziness ensued. My son and his wife came over to visit for a little while before my stepdaughter left to go home.  We all managed to get some lunch, feed and change the baby before they left.

After they pulled out of the driveway, I laid down on the bed and died for 2 solid hours. I did not move.  Mind you, I am not that old but once you get used to no children at home, it is a major adjustment when little ones do come to visit.  I love them dearly. 

But sometimes, silence is golden.

Slow and Steady

November 12, 2011 – - – - I can fit in to my size 22 jeans!!!  WooHoo!  2 months, 2 sizes down.  Praise God!  To God alone be the glory!!! In my brokenness physically, I could not have done this.  It’s all Him!!

November 14, 2011 – - Got up and did my first day of the Bible study of James with Beth Moore. Not connecting yet but I know I’ll get there.

Work was crazy busy today. So busy, I ate cold steak and worked at the same time. What a mess!  My left leg kept feeling like it was being pulled out of joint again because I was getting up and down and up and down and up and down out of my chair.  Couldn’t wait to get off work and out of that chair!

November 15, 2011 – - – Today’s Bible study left me with some meat to chew on.  I love these studies!

Went to see Dr. Hamby today and explained about the leg issue.  He told me that all of the leg joint muscles are trying to compensate for the inflamed sciatic nerve and when one gets out of whack, it messes all of them up. It is basically a muscle spasm.  Makes so much sense. So when it happened again today, and I stood up, I waited for the spasm to ease, then went on.

November 18, 2011—Still down about Marlboro Man. He is disagreeable, argumentative and defensive about everything.  I wish there was something I could do but he switches on and off like a switch.  All I can do is pray.  Realized looking back that it had to do with medications during and after surgery that affected his mood. But for the time being, I had a hard time focusing on Bible study this morning because I couldn’t seem to pick myself up, my heart was just heavy.

I just realized that I’ve been going a few nights without pain in my leg!!!  I can walk without limping for the most part. I just have to walk slowly.

Slowly.  It’s getting there…gradually. Thank you, Lord!

 

 

The Trials of Life

October 28, 2011 – - Slept well last night—in my little bed.  I just love snuggling up with great covers and a comfy mattress.  Got up at 5:30, hit the floor running.  Ate sausage, took my meds, got a shower, washed dark clothes and headed out the door to get Hallmark Man from the hospital so I could get a full day’s work in.  About that time, my daughter called and said she was at the ER  She said her chest is hurting real bad and is barking and coughing.  She sat at the ER  from 5:30 to 8:45 and they are still moving her down the list.  She should have gone to a different ER.  My son has a hole in his ear drum from rough-housing with a friend.  You’d think he’d learn.  I guess I did too much with my leg because the interior groin area started hurting real, real bad. Even with the cane, it didn’t help much. Took a hydrocodone and am sitting on ice pack before I have to go get Hallmark Man’s medicine.

My only concern is not being able to pay bills this payday.  We have to eat. I don’t know what to do about the cable bill.

I made 28 hours this week. Woo…

I had to leave after an hour at work today to take Lindsay to the ER for bronchitis and upper respiratory infection, get her Rx filled and take her back home.  Worked a whole 4 hours today.

Had to go to Kroger, Tractor Supply, Walgreens, Parkers and then Guyton Grill before I could settle in at home.  I am ready for the weekend to relax! This whole roller coaster of trials and turbulence is wearing me out.

October 29, 2011 – - – I slept until 10 this morning, not all the way through the night.  I did get up numerous times to pee, as usual.  It was nice to stay in bed. I really didn’t want to get up at all.  Hallmark Man was up, watching TV and it was cloudy and had rained outside.  I couldn’t think of a reason to get up.

I decided to fast until dinner.  I cleaned out the bird feeder and got them some fresh food and then went into the bedroom to do my Bible study video.  I got two phone calls from my son.  He and his wife are buying a house. They just got pre-approved for $80k and want me to go house hunting with them tomorrow.  They are looking in Guyton so my Mom is coming, too.  Being this close to my house, I’m sure she’ll want to see it so I figured I needed to clean up some.

I slowly started by trimming the Indian blankets, grabbing the mail, sweeping the porch, watering the plants, vacuuming, laundry, cleaning the bathroom, Louis’ room, cleaning the counters, bathing the dog, etc etc.  It seemed like the more I did, the more needed to be done.

I finally sat down and ate spaghetti with Hallmark Man and cleaned the kitchen again.  Finally sat down around 6:15 with an ice pack for my back.  I’ve got two more loads going in the washer/dryer.  Lord give me strength!

I am ready for bed.  As I am glancing at the TV commercials, I can’t believe Christmas commercials are already on.  Geez….

I got a text that we are supposed to have a frost in the morning so I had to run out and grab the hanging baskets and bring them in.

I am finding myself tired and not liking Facebook anymore. Tired of the games and blocking most of them.  Not really being on it for a week while Hallmark Man was in the hospital broke me from it and I just realize there is more to life than playing on the computer.