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Fear of Pain?

I was watching Beth Moore today on Life Today.  I usually catch up on her Wednesday show via iTunes.  It’s about a 20 minute segment and I really enjoy it.

She brought up a subject that made a light bulb go off in my head.  How many times has the Lord compelled you to be healed but you won’t take the step of faith because you are afraid of the pain of the process?  That is the biggest lie of the devil.   If we are already in pain, what is there to be afraid of?  God only has our best interest at heart.

I remember for about a year, I wanted to lose weight so badly. I talked to God about it constantly. And I do mean constantly.  Every time I went to get a shower and looked in the mirror, I started dialoguing about how much I would love to be smaller.  Every time I moved, I wanted to be smaller. Everybody I watched on TV made me want to be smaller.  Shopping for clothes was non-existent because it reminded me of how much I wanted to be smaller.  Stuffing my face with junk food just caused more pain because the whole time I ate, I hated myself.

Oh sure, I was 286 lbs and I needed to be smaller.  I begged God for help. I whined about all of the things I could not physically do nor could I afford to do them. This went on for a year.  I can’t tell you the last time I was under 200 lbs, come to think of it.  But I’m sure God was getting His fill of my excuses and whining and fears.

He got my attention to nudge me in the direction of doing what I needed to be doing all along.  In August of last year, I had an acutely inflamed sciatic nerve that just about did me in. I was in pain, a lot of pain.  Every movement was excruciating.  YET, in my mind, I was SCARED of going through the healing process. Sounds ridiculous now that it is in black and white. Well, truthfully, it was ridiculous.

Once the healing began, I have never felt better in my life.  I have my full brain function back. Seriously.  I was having swiss-cheese brain farts and I just figured it was because I was getting older (I’m only 46) but, hey, any excuse’ll do…right?   I am not constantly thinking about my weight.  I can focus where I truly should be focusing…on Christ.

Yesterday marked the first week of being totally free of anti-depressants since 2000.  I prayed about that, too.  Fear of the process?  Yes, I was scared. I admitted that outright to the Lord and asked for His help daily.  Totally different from when I was running from the pain of getting healthy. This was something I truly wanted to be free from.

God can do amazing things if we let Him.  He’s not the kind of God to force His will upon us. He has given us free will.  He lovingly and patiently waits until we take the first step of faith. He will then move mountains to help us.

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Aware

Yesterday morning I felt compelled to fall on my face before the Lord God. Not on my knees, but my face.  His majesty, love and sovereignty were overwhelming.

“The Lord has done great things for us, and we are filled with joy.”  Ps. 126:3

I was listening to the song “Aware” by Salvador and the words just jumped out at me.“Make me aware; make me see that everything I am is not all about me. Take my world; turn it around so the obvious can finally be found.”

In the last two years, my “world” has been turned upside down. Humanly speaking, I have lost my home, my job (actually happened in 2008 to which I turned to real estate and we all know how that went…), my Daddy, my health. But during the entire process, I saw what faith can do.  Believing that God has our best interest at heart and trust in Him, we will then see through a different lens.

I had an expectant heart that God had a plan for my life.  He did not disappoint.  I am living in the house of my dreams. I don’t own it, but you know what?  Abraham didn’t own a house. Jesus didn’t own a house either.  This world is not my home! I am just passing through. My true home lies in Heaven with my Savior.

I lost my mobility in August of 2011 due to an acutely inflamed sciatic nerve, but gained an awareness of a need that had long been neglected—my health.  The Lord has turned my health around. It is absolutely NOTHING I have done, except eating whole, natural food. It is for His honor and glory. I have not even been physically able to exercise so that He alone can take the credit. It is sometimes still painful to walk but I am praying that the Lord will restore my mobility when my health is where it should be.

I now am working my dream job. IF I hadn’t lost my job, my house…I wouldn’t have taken a lower paying, part time job that led to this one. I say it that way because when I first lost my job, I was making fantastic money. It wasn’t until we were at the point of “desperation” that God opened a door for me that I would have never taken IF He had not engineered the circumstances.  God had a plan and it was more than I could have dreamed.

He has made me more aware of Him than I ever knew before and I cannot get enough. I want to know Him more.

He is the “obvious” that can be found when we open our eyes.

Free at last!!

Wednesday, the 14th of March, was my last dose of Cymbalta.  I am free at last !!  20 days ago, I began to taper off by removing 10 beads a day out of the 60 mg capsule to eliminate as much of the withdrawal symptoms as possible.  I have read some horror stories, let me tell you.   If you don’t believe me, go to www.cymbaltawithdrawal.com and check it out.

I can truly say that I did it with lots of prayer, whole, natural food and supplements.  The one that seemed to help the most with keeping side effects at bay were the Alpha Lipoic Acid (ALA) and lots of fish/krill oil.  Oh, believe me, when I tell you I have a ton of supplements that I have been using to get healthy.  Although when I first started my journey back in late September, it has continually changed.  At first, it was just plain Nature Made vitamins until I started doing research.

I have shrunk from a size 26 to almost a 16 since October, 2011.

Only God could have done what He has done with me.  I have learned so much via research and study.  God said in Matthew 7:7 to “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.”

My life has been a roller-coaster of diet programs.  I lost 75 lbs on the Sugarbusters diet but it was not a lifestyle change. It was not for my health.  I gained back twice that.   I tried Weight Watchers back in the day when you ate green beans and tuna. To this day, I am not a fan of green beans and tuna.

I had to find something that worked for my body and something I could live with the rest of my life.  It had to be a lifestyle change.    Hallmark Man has even joined in since he’s seen such a difference in me and let me tell you, I am seeing a difference in him as well.

Whole, natural, unprocessed food is the way to go.  Supplement with a good, whole food, organic vitamin; krill oil; garlic; gingko, magnesium, 7-Keto, Alpha-lipoic-acid, L-Carnitine, L-Lysine, Spirulina, Chlorella (gets rid of toxins!),  vitamin D3, Ubiquinol (CoQ10), and a good psyllium husk fiber (organic is best).

Of course, everybody’s body is different but that is what works for me and I am seeing changes all the time.  Thank you, Lord!!!

Cymbalta Withdrawal

I’ve been on Cymbalta 60 mg for so long, I’ve lost track of how many years it has been.  My best guess is 7 years. I started tapering down a week and a half ago.  Each morning, I take 10 beads more out of the capsule.  Tomorrow, I will be down to 30 mg.

I’ve noticed today that I felt flu-like so I took some ibuprofen.  Every now and again, a wave of nausea will hit and go away.  My eyes are dry, but really that is nothing new since I have Thygeson’s SPK.

I’ve been taking daily doses of Omega 3, Flaxseed oil, Ginger, Gingko, Garlic, Alpha Lipoic Acid, Krill Oil with evening primrose, Chlorella, psyllium, L-lysine, whole food organic vitamins, probiotic, and magnesium and I am eating as much organic and raw food that I can.

From what I have read, the side effects coming off this drug are horrendous and I have been praying for wisdom to counter these effects naturally.

I am taking it one day at the time and if I need to continue 30mg for a few more days then start dropping again, I may do that.  I’m not going to rush it because I do not want brain zaps and emotional breakdowns like I have read so many people endure.

Victory happens one day at a time.

Free Your Mind

I have been on anti-depressants since the year 2000.  I was told that it would be a life-long issue with me since it runs in my family.  I bought into that mindset.  Until recently.

I have been trying to turn my life around physically by going organic and eating more healthy, natural food and taking natural supplements.  In the short 5 months that I’ve been doing this, I have seen an amazing change in myself physically and mentally.

I didn’t start any of this without a lot of prayer.  I wanted the Lord’s blessing on this and I’ve asked for His wisdom, daily, along the way.

I’ve been doing a lot of research, especially about how to get off Cymbalta.  The internet sites I went to scared me to death.  The withdrawal symptoms people experienced were horrible.  I continued to pray about my deep desire to go off anti-depressants.

I realized that my mind had to be healed before I could attempt this.  Heal your body naturally and your mind will follow.

I did get some good tips on how to come off this medicine that had long since lost its usefulness, although I was not ready before now.

Each day, I am removing 10 more beads from the capsule I am taking and I am praying that in 40 days, I will be free.  I am 4 days in and Praise God! No side effects.

The supplements that I have been taking are:  ALA, Omega 3 (Krill Oil), L-Lysine, Probiotics, Chlorella, Spirulina, Organic Whole Food Vitamins, Flaxseed Oil, Magnesium, 7-Keto (Dhea).  Chlorella was to detox my system from all of the toxins in it.  I’ve learned through research that the gut has to be healthy for the brain to be healthy.  It’s a solid connection.

My verse that I am claiming during this is Galations 5:1  “It is for freedom that Christ set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.”

With God’s help, I am ready to free my mind.

Desperation

What would you do if you were desperate?  Have you ever been desperate?

I know I have been desperate for money and I have made foolish decisions based on that desperation.  Being in a financial pinch can cause you to do radical things. Why do you think pawn shops and Title pawns have been so successful?  People need money and they don’t care about the consequences of super inflated fees and interest where they end up paying back 3 times what they borrowed.

I read the news this weekend about a man who robbed a bank and got caught.  Sad part of it was that he was a former client of mine.  The clerk he robbed knew him and asked him, “Are you sure you want to do this?”  His response, “I have to.”

So sad.

Sometimes, things come at you so fast that you can’t control it.  But you can control your reaction. We shouldn’t react.  We should respond.  The best way to respond is to pray for wisdom and knowledge and help from the Lord immediately. If you wait and listen, He will guide you in the right direction.

Family

Yesterday, we got together with my side of the family as a “reunion” of sorts to commemorate one year since my Daddy passed away and to support my Mom.

The last time we got together like this was in February, 2011, when he died.

We went through a very painful week together at Hospice and we formed some bonds that will always remain.

Yesterday was a joyous ocassion. Daddy is in heaven.  We celebrated with a spread of food that was amazing.  We enjoyed sharing supplement tips, organic food and dieting ideas.  The men sat in the living room and the ocassional pieces that I caught from their conversation involved hunting or politics. Yawn. lol

The women, on the other hand, were having a blast.  My Aunt Pam is famous for her pranks and relished retelling the story of some poor victim who never suspected a thing.  Her daughter, Julie, was in the thick of it with her.  The men got curious because we were laughing so hard, they wanted in on our conversation.  Even after telling the event twice, I was still overflowing with laughter.  You know why?  Because it was so “unconventional.”  It was a fart prank she played on a massage guy at the mall with a can of flarp she got at the Dollar store.   We were telling stories about farting that were hysterical.  We let our “hair” down and had a blast.

I love it when you can be yourself with family and not put up pretenses.

My sister had just come back from a missions trip to the Philipines so I got to see pictures and videos she took while there.  The cultural differences were amazing.  The people were open, welcoming and very attentive.  Even having to stand at assemblies, the children at school were focused.  If that were in America, the kids would be complaining, whispering and distracted.

Another thing that amazed me was that we could go over to another country and share the gospel at schools without issue.  Over half the kids in each assembly raised their hands to accept Christ as their Savior.  Here in America, they are pushing God out of schools. Sad, sad, sad.

I really, really enjoyed spending the day with my family yesterday.  I almost didn’t want to leave.  Some days I wish I didn’t live an hour away from my Mom but every time I have to go into Savannah, I thank God that I don’t live there anymore.  I love living out in the “country.”

My Aunt Lynn gave my Mom a GPS, so maybe she’ll come visit me sometime.  🙂

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