I wrote this one in October, 2008:
I am assuming that most of you are having to make financial adjustments due to this waining economy and you wonder if you should be doing what you are doing or move to a “real” job. I had begun to wonder that, especially when my husband kept telling me that I needed to find a job. Easier said than done since I’m 43 and not qualified to be a long haul trucker or a hairdresser–both of which seem to be the only available “jobs” out there.
So, I took my problem to God. He’s got all of the answers, right? He said, “Cast your care upon me for I care for you.” So I did just that. I also asked him to increase my faith and my husband’s faith and if this is what I was supposed to be doing, let me know for sure. I left it at that.
Let me give you just a bit of history. Back in June, I had 5 closings on the book. I moved to RE/MAX in late July to get closer to home because of the gas prices and other issues I won’t get into now.
I’ve never been much of a listing agent because I didn’t get any training on how to say, what to say, etc. I was just unsure of myself. I had plenty of buyers (which was good for the $$ end of it). Less than 3 weeks into working at RE/MAX, I got my first listing. It was overpriced (still is, but the homeowners won’t reduce it). I got a 2nd listing (overpriced) and then a third. The third listing was a referral from someone that I met but never actually got a chance to make a sale on because one of them lost their jobs. I didn’t think much of it but less than a week after that listing, it got shown and we got a cash offer. It closed in 3 weeks. The Lord provided for my house payment last month on that sale. He’s so good!
Also because of that sale, I was referred to another person in Savannah who wanted to sell their house and was impressed at how quickly that one went that he wanted to use me as well. 4th listing. (yes, there is a point to this, just bear with me a moment longer)
I got two more listings from someone that works with my husband and then it just seemed as if everything stopped. It’s only been a week since I got those but when bills are coming due and people are calling and the groceries and gas are running low, it seems like an eternity. That’s when I began to pray (a lot!). I know I can drive the Lord crazy sometimes because when things seem to be falling down, He’ll hear from me all day long and all night long on and off until I get a peace about it or something changes.
I’ve been making subtle changes in my walk with Him to get closer and I’ve been asking Him to change my heart and that of my family’s to draw us all closer to Him to bring honor and glory to His name.
Sunday, my daughter’s boyfriend accepted Christ as Savior. My husband told me after church that he would start going to church with us again. Praise God!
Still looming was my September house payment and now it’s October and I owe two. I’ve got bills I have to pay by Friday and my gas was almost on “E”. My husband came home from work on Monday and informed me that he had gotten a pay advance so we could get some groceries and gas and pay some bills. I was somewhat relieved but not thrilled about “borrowing” more money. The first thing I wanted to do was to go eat out at “El Real.” The BEST Mexican restaurant EVER! Their salsa is so fresh, I crave it. The cilantro just makes it awesome! OK…back to reality. I had to go to my room and listen to a sermon podcast to snap myself out of the pity party I found myself in. I wanted to show the Lord that I could be frugal but this was HARD! I found encouragement from the podcast and got up and went into the kitchen and prepared dinner. I gained a victory over what seems like a teensy battle to some but it was HARD for me. I love to eat out!
Tuesday I went to the grocery store and was being very careful about how I spent money, using coupons and buying items on sale, etc. I got a call while I was in the grocery store and someone wanted to list their home for sale! It was a house I had gone to in August for a listing appointment and he seemingly blew me off. I had forgotten about it. Turns out the guy was in the middle of a divorce and couldn’t do it then. I felt bad because of all of the horrible things I thought about him after that appointment. Anyway, after I got home and unloaded all of those groceries, the LAST thing I wanted to do was cook so again I had to snap myself out of the pity party mode with some Christian music and cook dinner for my family. Another victory that the Lord helped me to win!
Today I got up early talking to God. I did all of the laundry, ironed my husband’s shirts, cleaned the house, wrote all of the past due bills letters of explanation as to why we were behind (can you say “Realtor?”) and went to the office for an appointment. There was a check on my desk for $75 for a home warranty that I bought back in August and didn’t expect to see that. Thank you, Lord! I also got a call today from another Realtor. They are going to show my referral listing! WooHoo!!
I ran home after that, mixed up some meatloaf for the family, threw it in the oven and went to my appointment to list that house. After I got back to the office, I was inputting it into the computer and I was asked if I wanted floor duty for the rest of the afternoon. It was only a couple of hours so I said, “Sure.” Well, guess what?? A first time buyer walked in. The Lord is so good, isn’t He???
Faith is a wonderful thing—especially when the Lord increases it and makes you feel so loved in the process.
Be blessed in the Lord!