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November 26, 2011 — Slept in this morning.  Got up, gave the dog a bath, got a shower and did some laundry, and did my Bible study.  Took a nap, talked to Mom a while. She’s sick.  My sister called. She is going nuts with the kids.

I am just feeling like one big void.  No emotions whatsoever.  I can’t figure out what is causing it.  No joy, no anger, no passion, nothing.  No emotions.  I hate it.  I am really wondering if I can come off Cymbalta.  I know I’ve tried before to get rid of anti-depressants and then realized I needed to be on them.  But my diet has changed and I am trying to be healthy, removing toxins from my diet and I am just can’t seem to be excited about Christmas.  We’ve got medical and bills, bills, bills.  We need groceries but are broke.  I worked my tail off this past week to make sure we had enough money but still fall short.    It’s like this every stinking year.  We are fine all through the year and BOOM! September hits and our health falls apart and we end up with uncontrollable medical bills. I wish I had help with this but Hallmark Man just exists here. He does not pay attention to the bills.

November 27, 2011 – – Didn’t sleep real good last night. I went to bed with Hallmark Man to cuddle some and laying on my left side, balancing to rub his back aggravated my leg. I ended up getting up and going to the twin bed and taking a half of a hydrocodone to ease the pain so I could sleep.

This morning, I am still in a funk. Feel like I’ve got a cloud over my head.  I did actually have a few tears so I do have a heart in there somewhere!!  I had posted last night on Facebook about my journey to health and I have a dear Christian sister in Texas that I’ve never physically met that posted under mine to remind me that my body is the temple of the Holy Spirit and why I started this journey to begin with.  I love that dear sister in Christ!  We met on MySpace and moved to Facebook.  I can’t wait to meet her in heaven.  She is so dear to me!

You know something that God made me realize the other night while I was laying in bed pondering?  Food was an idol to me.  I woke up thinking about it, obsessing about it and it is all I focused on.  It was what I lived for.  WRONG!  God alone should be Who I live for…not the food He provides.  He even fussed at the children ofIsraelto not worship His creation. Duh….sometimes I am so slow!

I just spend the last few minutes reading back through this journal.  It seems like forever and a day on a diet and nothing is happening fast enough until I look at the timeline. I actually started The Metabolic Typing Diet in early October.  It really hasn’t been that long. I can see the changes by looking back at what was happening.  Praise God for answered prayer!!  He hears me when I call.  He answers me.  He loves me.  How awesome is that!!!!

I started a new online course that I found via a friend on Facebook called Belief Changers. The actual course is The Abiding Life.  It’s learning to live by abiding in Christ’s love.  I was raised in a Christian home but in school and church, we were drilled legalism. I am trying to erase that but learning to abide in Christ and not go by “works” is hard. I still beat myself up when I miss church or don’t pray enough.  I am hoping this will get me through those thoughts.

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No Pain, No Gain?

October 6, 2011 – I slept good last night. I only got up twice to pee, which was great. I did take a hydrocodone before bed because my leg was starting to bug me. It only does that at night.

This morning as I was walking toward the kitchen, I slammed my left foot into my cane and smacked the crap out of my toes. That will certainly wake you up!

I have green/blue toes now. Oh well, life rolls on.

Cooked breakfast, did my Bible study, put a roast in the crockpot (I prayed over it that it would be good because my usual stuff was not on my shelf and it was not healthy anyway) and made it out the door intact. My driver’s side window still half up, I got to enjoy the cool air going to work this morning.

I had tuna salad with pickles and some yogurt for lunch. The guys at work took my van door apart and got the window wedged into an upright position.  I’m grateful for that—especially since the rain is supposed to start tomorrow.  I’ve got to bake them some brownies for doing that for me.

I started getting sleepy around 4 and even up until bedtime it took all I had to stay awake. I don’t know why I was so tired unless it was too much sugar at lunch via yogurt and mayo.

October 7, 2011 – –  I had to get up this morning, much to my body’s protest.  My dog was sitting at the bedroom door, whining at me to get up. She was ready for her morning cheese.

I baked brownies for the guys at work, cooked breakfast, did my Jonah study sans coffee.  I’m not a huge fan anyway so I was kinda relieved knowing that I am not supposed to be drinking caffeinated products anyway based on my metabolic type.  I am not forcing things I don’t like—they aren’t on my diet anyway. Cool.

Lunch was leftover roast.  It has been a crazy day at work, very stressful and I don’t get stressed very often.

I am ready to go home. I really want to go by Kroger because we are out of so many things but I would be floating a check for a week.

I did go to Kroger. I limped through and got a few organic items to a whopping $188 (minus the $25 gift card for gas).  I was in excruciating pain and hobbled the rest of the night.

October 8, 2011 – – – I slept until almost 10am. I was so tired.  This daily workout with my cane is wearing me out. I am sore. I even took a 3 hour nap.  I am tired and my body aches like the flu. Later realized it was carb/sugar withdrawal.  Took Tylenol and it helped. Ate only two meals today. Just not hungry.  Now watching “Thor” with Louis.

October 9, 2011—Had a very rough night. Pain kept waking me up. I tossed and turned and moaned and groaned.  But odd thing, I got up this morning and I have been walking around, cleaning, and even repainted my toenails and I have not had any problems.  It is almost 2 and I am starting to feel that flu-ish feeling again. I wish I knew what causes that. I am wondering if it is the Stevia in my water.

October 10, 2011 – – This day started off just fine.  No crutch required. Praise the Lord!  I went and paid the water bill, dropped off mail at the post office, got gas and went to work. Then all hell broke loose. My computer was messed up and rebooted all day. Going to a customer to pick up parts in the rain, my handle broke on the driver’s door so now that the window won’t roll down and I can’t get out the driver’s side, I have to crawl to the passenger side to get out. Fun.  Issues, issues and pressure all day.  Hallmark Man’s computer conked out and instead of being rational and taking it to get it fixed (only 6 months old, warranty…hello!) He smashed it to pieces.  I am so not happy with him.  I gave up getting a decent mower this summer so he could have a nice computer.  That really hurt!

I am just trying to make it through. It took all I had not to cry today. I needed my boss at work to fix the flipping computer. Mondays suck for him to be away off site.  This Monday sucked even worse. I had people emailing and fussing about this and that and it puts pressure on me.

I am OK now but part of me wants to hide under the covers and not come out.

 

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