Yesterday morning I felt compelled to fall on my face before the Lord God. Not on my knees, but my face. His majesty, love and sovereignty were overwhelming.
“The Lord has done great things for us, and we are filled with joy.” Ps. 126:3
I was listening to the song “Aware” by Salvador and the words just jumped out at me.“Make me aware; make me see that everything I am is not all about me. Take my world; turn it around so the obvious can finally be found.”
In the last two years, my “world” has been turned upside down. Humanly speaking, I have lost my home, my job (actually happened in 2008 to which I turned to real estate and we all know how that went…), my Daddy, my health. But during the entire process, I saw what faith can do. Believing that God has our best interest at heart and trust in Him, we will then see through a different lens.
I had an expectant heart that God had a plan for my life. He did not disappoint. I am living in the house of my dreams. I don’t own it, but you know what? Abraham didn’t own a house. Jesus didn’t own a house either. This world is not my home! I am just passing through. My true home lies in Heaven with my Savior.
I lost my mobility in August of 2011 due to an acutely inflamed sciatic nerve, but gained an awareness of a need that had long been neglected—my health. The Lord has turned my health around. It is absolutely NOTHING I have done, except eating whole, natural food. It is for His honor and glory. I have not even been physically able to exercise so that He alone can take the credit. It is sometimes still painful to walk but I am praying that the Lord will restore my mobility when my health is where it should be.
I now am working my dream job. IF I hadn’t lost my job, my house…I wouldn’t have taken a lower paying, part time job that led to this one. I say it that way because when I first lost my job, I was making fantastic money. It wasn’t until we were at the point of “desperation” that God opened a door for me that I would have never taken IF He had not engineered the circumstances. God had a plan and it was more than I could have dreamed.
He has made me more aware of Him than I ever knew before and I cannot get enough. I want to know Him more.
He is the “obvious” that can be found when we open our eyes.