I grew up in church and Sunday school and was in a Christian school all of my life. My parents ensured that I was there every time the doors were open. One would think that I was totally grounded in the Word and in my faith. Not necessarily so.
I was in the legalistic generation of the seventies and by the time I graduated high school in 1983, I wanted out of that environment. It took me two years to figure out who I really was and what I believed. Of course, I was a believer in Christ…of that much, I was certain. The rest was a gray area. I wanted to know what other churches did and why. I was hungry for truth and not man-made laws (no movies, no pants on women, if it was fun—it was sin, etc.)
It wasn’t until I took a “Precepts” class at church one year that I began to see how deep the Scriptures were and that every period and comma were there intentionally. My hunger for the Word increased and I bought a study Bible. I read it through for the first time in my life. I wanted to see what God’s Word said for myself. I figured if I died and went to Heaven, Jesus would probably wonder why I never read His love letter to us. I didn’t really stop and study it but wanted to read it. Things I didn’t understand, I went to online commentaries. I think I read it in about four months. I had to keep running my family out of my bedroom so I could read. Satan used every interruption in the book to try to get me to stop, including my kids rolling their eyes at me because they “needed” me. Not really. They don’t bother me if I’m sitting in front of the TV or on the computer. But if I’m trying to get closer to the Lord by reading or studying, they are all over me.
After studying a few “Precepts” with Kay Arthur, I was introduced to Beth Moore studies by a friend and I have been soaking them up as much as I can. I’ve learned so much in the last year. It is amazing how God will peel back layer after layer of Himself as He knows you are ready to handle deeper truths.
One verse that I have often quoted was Psalms 37:4 “Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.” I have read it as “delight in the Lord and He will give you what you really want.” That’s not what it says. We often misinterpret Scripture because we do not truly read it as it says and allow the Holy Spirit to show it’s true meaning. I did not catch how I had been reading it until Dr. Charles Stanley said something one day about that verse and it hit me like a brick wall.
It literally says to delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart. HE will give you proper desires, not sinful ones. The desire of our heart should be to please Him in all our ways. He will purge our old desires and replace them with ones that please Him. His purpose for us is to make us more like Christ. Our human nature has to die first. The more we read Scripture and take it word by word and let Scripture interpret Scripture, then we are on the right path to understanding Him and what He wants for us.
Don’t ever think that you will figure God out. He’s too multi-faceted and deep for that. Even King David couldn’t figure Him out. But, really….do you want to? I mean, think about how boring of a god we would have if we could figure him out. If we could figure him out, he wouldn’t be God. I like that He keeps me wondering and pondering and searching. He reveals something new everytime and it delights my soul. Only He can satisfy us like that. Only He can fill that void inside of you. Only He can bring pure joy.
Be blessed in the Lord!