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The Voice

And before I begin, no, I am not referring to the TV show.  🙂

Saturday morning, I woke up with a “Good Morning, Lord” and was immediately told to fast.  It had not entered my mind to do it prior to this on this particular day.  And in case you are wondering, it was not an audible Voice.  It was the Voice of the Spirit speaking to my heart.  I’m learning to listen to this Voice, even as still and small as it may be. I’m always eager to hear the Father speak to me.  Whether through His Word, a song, another believer or that inner whisper that you know can only be from Him.

I have fasted a few times in the past few months but this time was different.  I felt the Spirit leading me and I wanted to hear what God had to say to me.  I had some issues that I had been wrestling with internally and I figured that today was as good a day as any to clear my mind and focus on Him for the day and search the Word.

Issue #1:  I only lost 5 pounds last month.  Yes, it was a loss but I am still struggling with it because I still have 70 more to lose, even after losing 91. That’s a lot of weight to lose. So I am wondering:  What did I do wrong?  What do I need to change?  What have I changed in my diet that I need to revert back to the start? Is it slowing down? Lord, please say no to that last question!

I purchased the book “Foundations for Healing” by Dr. Richard Becker.  For those of you who aren’t familiar with him, he’s a Christian doctor (D.O.) who battled Hodgkins Lymphoma with holistic medicine and natural food and won.  He now has a TV show (“Your Health” with Dr Richard Becker and Cindy Becker) and tries to help as many people as he can with healing their bodies naturally, which, takes time. I’ve learned a lot watching him but I was determined Saturday to read his book.

I learned a lot reading it.  His “healing diet” is basically a “no-grain” diet.  I originally started my weight loss with no grains and had gradually incorporated them back in.  I’m not at my goal weight yet, so I need to go back to basics. I realized a couple of weeks back that I had stopped drinking as much water as before. Not because I didn’t want to drink it, but because I was so busy at work, I didn’t think about it.  That’s not a good thing. 

His book also teaches how much of the supplements to take.  How much vitamin D we need for each issue in our body or the types of antioxidants to take as well.  Lots of really good information.

I had no idea that Stevia had additives in it….IF you purchase the wrong one.  Something always steered me away from Truvia and Purevia but I didn’t know why until I saw, within the last 3 days, several resources (Dr. Becker, Dr. Mercola and Livestrong) telling of the additives in those products that are potentially dangerous for our bodies. 

So I’m going back to as much water as I can stand and eliminating the grains for a while.  Those were answers to prayer. 

Issue #2: I am trying to focus on getting pain-free as well from this sciatic nerve that has wreaked havoc in my life since last summer.  One of Dr Becker’s shows was on therapeutic healing and forcing yourself to move, even if in pain, may be counter intuitive but it is the only way to keep your body from “locking up.” 

So, I will be “moving” more and trying to strengthen parts of my body that I have lost muscle capacity due to this pain and asking for His continued help.

I did ask how long He wanted me to fast and it was only a 24 hour period but constant prayer got me through it.  That is what fasting is all about, right?  Clear the mind, the body and free yourself to focus on nothing but Him. 

I really enjoyed my day.  🙂

 

Changes

I’ve been on a social media sabbatical, so to speak for a little while now.  I didn’t want to blog.  I quit playing games on Facebook.  I almost quit Facebook altogether but I didn’t.  I just felt “tied down” to these items and I needed a breather.

You know what I discovered?  I really don’t miss Facebook games at night (or trying to harvest crops on my lunch break).

I am still going to keep my account and friendships (although I’ve downgraded to real friends, not just gaming acquaintances that I’ve accumulated).  I still post my daily Scripture verse and anything in the world of health/organics that could help somebody.  Other than that, I’m not on it much.

I’ve been free from anti-depressants for over 30 days now.  I don’t miss them either. :-)l   All I can say is Praise the Lord!  He is the only One Who could have ever gotten me this far.  He’s helped me go from 286 lbs to 195, so far.  I’m still journeying on that one.  It will be a while before I reach my ideal body weight but it really didn’t start out as a diet to lose weight.  It was a lifestyle change to get healthy.  I’m just going to say “Only God.”  Only God could have done what He’s done with me. 

My husband and I are closer than ever before.  We are both studying God’s Word, getting closer to Him.  It makes a HUGE difference in your marriage, let me tell you.

If you don’t think that God can make a difference in your life, I’m living proof He can.  I look back at my life a year ago and I am amazed.  He’ll only do it if you let Him.  He will never force Himself on you. 

And, a word to the wise, it does not happen overnight.  I remember as vivid as it was yesterday, in 2004, I prayed that He would take me, break me, mold me, make me into what He wanted me to be.  I was at rock bottom and I had made a mess of my life and needed Him to take over. 

Each year has its challenges and there have been gradual changes inside but I’d have to say that this past year was the most vivid because of staying in Scripture, doing daily studying and constant communication with Him.  It is VITAL to the relationship and your maturity in Christ.

Invite Him.  Take that first step of faith and you’ll be surprised what He can do.

 

 

Fear of Pain?

I was watching Beth Moore today on Life Today.  I usually catch up on her Wednesday show via iTunes.  It’s about a 20 minute segment and I really enjoy it.

She brought up a subject that made a light bulb go off in my head.  How many times has the Lord compelled you to be healed but you won’t take the step of faith because you are afraid of the pain of the process?  That is the biggest lie of the devil.   If we are already in pain, what is there to be afraid of?  God only has our best interest at heart.

I remember for about a year, I wanted to lose weight so badly. I talked to God about it constantly. And I do mean constantly.  Every time I went to get a shower and looked in the mirror, I started dialoguing about how much I would love to be smaller.  Every time I moved, I wanted to be smaller. Everybody I watched on TV made me want to be smaller.  Shopping for clothes was non-existent because it reminded me of how much I wanted to be smaller.  Stuffing my face with junk food just caused more pain because the whole time I ate, I hated myself.

Oh sure, I was 286 lbs and I needed to be smaller.  I begged God for help. I whined about all of the things I could not physically do nor could I afford to do them. This went on for a year.  I can’t tell you the last time I was under 200 lbs, come to think of it.  But I’m sure God was getting His fill of my excuses and whining and fears.

He got my attention to nudge me in the direction of doing what I needed to be doing all along.  In August of last year, I had an acutely inflamed sciatic nerve that just about did me in. I was in pain, a lot of pain.  Every movement was excruciating.  YET, in my mind, I was SCARED of going through the healing process. Sounds ridiculous now that it is in black and white. Well, truthfully, it was ridiculous.

Once the healing began, I have never felt better in my life.  I have my full brain function back. Seriously.  I was having swiss-cheese brain farts and I just figured it was because I was getting older (I’m only 46) but, hey, any excuse’ll do…right?   I am not constantly thinking about my weight.  I can focus where I truly should be focusing…on Christ.

Yesterday marked the first week of being totally free of anti-depressants since 2000.  I prayed about that, too.  Fear of the process?  Yes, I was scared. I admitted that outright to the Lord and asked for His help daily.  Totally different from when I was running from the pain of getting healthy. This was something I truly wanted to be free from.

God can do amazing things if we let Him.  He’s not the kind of God to force His will upon us. He has given us free will.  He lovingly and patiently waits until we take the first step of faith. He will then move mountains to help us.

Valentine’s Day

Happy Valentine’s Day!

I had to take Hallmark Man to the “big city” of Savannah for a colonoscopy this morning.  It only took us an hour and a half to get there.  Traffic along the interstate was zipping along at a whopping 5 miles an hour.  We took the nearest exit and went in via the back roads. Otherwise, we would have been sitting in traffic a lot longer.  3 hours later as we were leaving Savannah, the traffic was STILL backed up.

I am noting that today, I have no pain in my hips.  I did not eat red meat yesterday at all.  I didn’t eat any processed meat.  I did, however, eat every two hours because I was starving.  Maybe it was a mental thing, but I still didn’t make it up to 1399 calories (my max for the day, according to JillianMichaels.com, if I want to lose weight).

Oh, I didn’t mention it?  I signed up on her website yesterday.  I need a kick start.  I’ve got a lot more weight to lose.  Finding my food sensitivities is making this a little more tricky. I have to be leary of carbs that spike insulin, avoid red meat, processed meat and dairy (except butter).  So, I ate a lot of beans and eggs yesterday.  To look at it on print, (via nutridiary.com), it looked scary and I felt like I lost control, so that’s why I joined up with Jillian’s site.

So, I am excited about the no pain thing. I am going to the chiropractor tomorrow morning, not because I “need” it, but because I am dying to get on the scales. I haven’t been on the scales in a month.  I could do that for free, but I might as well get adjusted while I am there and share with him what I discovered about red meat.  🙂

The sad part of this whole ordeal is that Hallmark Man bought me a ring for Christmas.  It’s too big now.  It flops around on my finger and is at least half a size too big.  I didn’t realize I was losing weight in my fingers, too.  I’m constantly adjusting it.  I know…it’s a good thing.

You know what else could be daunting, but I’m not going to let it?  According to Jillian Michael’s website, I will reach my goal weight by December 24, 2012.  Of course, that is based on the 220 lbs that I weighed last time I went to the chiropractor.  We will see what tomorrow brings.  I am pumped!!

Do I Have To?

December 4, 2011 — Didn’t sleep in quite as long today. Got up at 9:30 and went outside and trimmed up the bushes. They are dying from some sort of fungus or disease so they look like crap right now. I couldn’t trim them in the summer because of the wasps and my hip.  It only took me a couple of hours but still my body is screaming.  I had to keep stopping and stretching my muscles.

I got in, ate some almonds, broccoli and peanut butter and watched another segment of beliefchangers.  Tried to take a nap but could not get warm. So I got up and got a hot shower and then took a ½ a hydrocodone and tried to take a nap. I slept for about 45 minutes before I got woke up to pee. I couldn’t get comfortable after laying back down but did manage to doze off for a bit.

Talked to Mom a little on the phone. She sounds better.

December 5, 2011 – Ugh. Monday. Or should I say “Moanday.”  Not thrilled about going to work today.  I know I’m not going to be busy because Boss won’t be there.  Boring. Makes for a long day.

I went to Kroger at lunch. I was dreading it. I knew it would be pricey and I didn’t even buy a lot.  Makes me sick.  When I am in this frame of mind, I know I shouldn’t evaluate my diet at this point.  I spent $306 and $110 of it was gift cards.

I got one of those for Daughter for Christmas and the other I used to get some fried shrimp for dinner.  After I got the shrimp, I realized that I possibly shouldn’t be eating them.  Fried in what kind of oil?  I’m sure it wasn’t olive oil. Batter can’t be spelt wheat. Soooo…no more of those. I should have gotten the ribs.

My nails need redoing and I am fighting myself about it. I really enjoy them. They are pretty, classy and about the only thing I like on me.  So I am not doing anything at this point. I am tempted to cut them off just to save $30 and time.

Hallmark Man had the news on and I am so glad he changed it.  Depressing.  I can’t focus on that stuff right now.

December 6, 2011 – – Went to chiropractor today. Told him about my muscle spasms and he said to pull up my leg half-cross legged to stretch that area several times a day.  It worked.

I was busy because Boss was back and I enjoyed it being busy.

Had to run back to Kroger. Seems I always forget things.  I am trying to type this while watching TV. The York Peppermint Patty commercial is enticing. I am missing eating tons and tons and tons of chocolate Christmas bells. I know they aren’t good for me.  I wish I could eat anything I wanted and not be affected by it.  I do love to eat.  I just have to remember as long as I am on this earth, I’ll be restricted on my diet if I want to have any quality of life.  ~sigh~

I’m sure any food we eat in heaven will be amazing and won’t be detrimental to my health. lol

Talked to my BFF Lori today. She is going through a rough time as well.  I miss her. We need to get together for lunch.

Almost time for bed.

December 7, 2011 – – I didn’t want to get up when my alarm went off.  I was in a deep sleep. More like a coma…

Boss has decided he wants to give gifts to our customers like Byrd Cookies or Two Smart Cookies and I started missing the sweets of Christmas again.

Basically, after weighing myself yesterday at Doc’s office, I’ve gone from 285 to 230 since December of last year.  I still have 100 lbs to lose.  Hallmark Man says there’s no hurry but dang, it’s gonna be a long year.

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